Revival - In God I Fear

REVIVAL – In God I Fear

It is hard to describe what has happened over the last 12 months or so. I have shared some of the things I have done and realized, but a lot has been going on lately and the Lord has shown me a few things I believe need to be shared. Realize I am writing of what God has led me to in the scriptures so that I may be able to truly live the life of freedom I always knew was out there but had no idea how to accomplish. Like most everything he keeps showing me, I was trying it totally opposite of his way and just dreaming for an outcome that could never happen.

I told a dear friend a while back about a problem I used to deal with and was explaining how I swore I would never act like that again. She calmly replied, “Why aren’t you better at it then? You think you would have learned!” That is an awesome question! I didn’t care to hear it at that point, but I just recently realized it is the sum of what I have been reading about the last few months.

A few questions kept coming up as I spent my daily time with God. I was saved at 9 years old, so why do I seem to be so far behind? Why does it seem so hard sometimes? Am I the one making it so hard? Does everyone go thru this? Are we all really the same? What am I to do next? How can I help people as I have always really wanted to do? Why has the last few years had to go the way they did? Why do we seem to have such a hard time obeying? Why had I gotten to have such I problem with sin? Didn’t I know better? Why do I still sin? As you can see I am one of those kids that ask “why” a lot. I could keep going with all the questions, but the answer is yes. Yes, I should be better at this!

Here are some simple truths I have found. Even after being saved I am capable of all sin. I always wanted to hold on to curtain things that I would never do, but that is a deception. I am a set of bad choices or circumstances away from anything. I truly hate to obey. I have never loved anyone the way I should have and truly wanted to. I have been way too arrogant in my own abilities to do anything. Deep down we are all the same. I am not any more special or messed up than any of us. That may be our greatest deception. We are all created in God’s image and there are no new things. Just things I have forgotten or haven’t allowed God to teach me yet.

I just need to revive what has always been. Two people seem to have been most obvious to read. Paul probably understood the freedom thru Christ better than most. He was the chief of sinners, but was led to write 14 books of the New Testament all while probably suffering more than any for Jesus. Solomon was the wisest and the son of David, which was a man after God’s own heart. Reading over the last few months have brought me thru a series of lessons that I believe lead to the revival and freedom I have always longed for. I have a long way to go, but I believe this is how God teaches us to get there. Over the next few weeks I will share a lot of scripture about dealing with thorns, fearing the Lord, the Cross and the wings of freedom thru the Holy Spirit.

Thorns are a consequence of my disobedience and unchecked with destroy me.

Fearing the Lord is the beginning of wisdom and the only way I will obey.

The Cross is the overwhelming plan in the Bible. It is the reminder of the blood sacrifice that Jesus willfully gave to atone for my sin once and for all because he loved us. Then he overcame death thru his resurrection and believing this and confessing it is my salvation. This is the only salvation there is and has always been that way. This is what was predetermined not who. It is all about Jesus baby!

Wings are a representation of the freedom thru the Holy Spirit that I have been missing. The Holy Spirit is the key to this. All God’s work using man has always been achieved thru his Spirit. It is our source of knowledge, guidance and power.

All I have read lately truly comes down to three simple things. Fear, obey and rejoice! Some may think this is too simple. Some way say it is too harsh. Some may think I am crazy, but this is the story I have to tell. This is what God has shown me. If it helps someone else great! I am just trying to obey more often with less of an attitude. When I am done I believe you will see that all this is a matter of the heart. Regardless of our cynical opinions we all have a heart that truly desires the same things, even when we don’t understand it or won’t admit it. The painful longing for something better! Something greater than ourselves to believe in! The love of God is it!

I started with “yes, I should be better at this” Hebrews 5 – 6:12.

I love all of you cause Jesus loves us both and there is absolutely nothing you can do about that!

BEZ