At my funeral.

As many of you know, I have been thru a lot in the past couple years. I have lost many things I held dear to me. This is the key point of this, “to me”. A friend asked me a really interesting question the other day while playing golf. He asked, “what would I want people to say about me at my funeral as they were standing around talking about my life?” As a person that has not thought about death in that way, I asked for a few minutes. Two simple sounding, but broad reaching things came to mind quicker than I thought. I told him that I would like people to be talking about what a good Christian and good Man I was. The good Man part could mean many things: father, husband, provider, friend, etc. I told him. What shocked me was his next question. He asked, ‘if I died today would people say the things you desire?” Unfortunately, but honestly I said probably not. I have not lived the Christian life I have always felt led to and that has for many reasons not allowed me to become the true Man I desire. Next question he asked was, “if that is really important to you, what are you going to do tomorrow to change it?”
These questions have been extremely thought provoking for me. Quite a few months ago I had started to realize that my focus over the last 10 years or so had always been on what I THOUGHT would make ME happy. It isn’t always bad for me to desire curtain things in life, but it must be in line with what God has in store for me first. I had completely strayed from my faith in that part of the equation. I remember hearing somewhere that “ Insanity is doing the same things over and over, but expecting a different result”. I need to do things differently. I am speaking of my desires as a Man, but the bible asks most of the same things from men and women. The only way I know how to improve on these things is going to the bible. It shows me how to live my daily life in any circumstance presented to me. I will be posting many of the things I find that help me. I am not just doing this to change those conversations at my funeral, which hopefully isn’t too soon, but I believe this is what God wants me to do. If any of this or the things I send later has any meaning or helps in any way please let me know and if anyone has any questions, just ask. Everyone seeks different things out of life, but I believe they will all ultimately leave us unsatisfied unless they go along with God’s desire for our lives first. The key to this is studying his word and praying. I just feel obligated to share these things with anyone God has brought into my life. The bible teaches us very basic life skills that we handle poorly every day, but can be vastly improved if we just seek the correct help.
God and his Word!

BEZ